I want something I can keep getting better at as long as I'm around, and I don't think romantic love is it. Much as I might feel deprived sometimes, or overwhelmed with apparently one-sided affection, I don't believe this is something I can keep getting better at. Most of the examples I see keep getting worse: why am I different? I'm not. I'm only a quitter. I want something I can keep getting better at as long as I'm around, and this isn't it. So a long time ago I quit.